For all the good

Almost my first anniversary of the big getting healthy thing and I am fighting with every breath to do keep my head above my shoulders and my mind above the pit. The downward pressure from recent lack lustre efforts, including an inclination towards avoiding the necessary tests and many mental cases built against further exercise, is starting to crush my spirit.

For every win I’ve had, the desire to self-destruct has multiplied. It is a virus. I am sick with it and I don’t know what the antedote is.